This is a very special self-portrait created by the artist to depict the impact of a chakra opening exercise. They discovered that the flower representing their throat chakra during the meditation was having difficulty opening (in fact so much so that some of the petals remained in their casings even when the flower had mostly opened). They ended up tearing up unexpectedly heavily as a result. The sunflower at the heart is a reference to the love that shines from the human soul, as well as a reference to Ginsberg's poem "Sunflower Sutra" in which a battered sunflower still with "strength to shine" represents resilience of the spirit. The butterfly wings signify not only the butterfly-shaped thyroid gland, with which the artist has had lifelong issues, but also change and uniqueness.